Having a stagnant life in Christ at the moment, coupled with constant yelling and unnecessary actions from my mother.

She's not to blame. She treated me like a prince in Hong Kong, we only had one argument there. Only one. I promised her to clean my room when I got home, I told her I had good grades.

I basically just lied to her face straight through my teeth.

She then finally dropped the bomb on me today. "YOU CALL YOURSELF CHRISTIAN AND YOU LIED."

I can't handle this statement...this "call yourself Christian." I don't call myself Christian. I AM Christian.

She then said something about "this is why I don't ladida your religion blah blah!"

I say NOTHING of her bullshit "spirituality." You call yourself Buddhist mom? BULLSHIT. You don't believe ANYTHING that follows Buddhism. Nirvana, my ass.

Your dad is a feng shui master. If he wasn't your dad you wouldn't believe in it, if he wasn't your dad you wouldn't believe his "predictions." But I hold my tongue, out of respect for one's practices, no matter how blasphemous I think they are.

Basically, I fucked up, and it really hurt to hear this. It always does. She says to stop using Christianity as an excuse. I always tell her I'm not perfect, she says that's an excuse too. But aren't you using my Christianity as an excuse to justify my wrongdoings? Mom, you're the MASTER of assumptions and excuses, but once Dad or I use them, we're wrong, we're stupid, we're unfair. You are the ultimate selfish debator. Congratulations. 

Then later you always say "I'm doing this because I love you," yes, I know you do, but you can't SAY THAT! YOU CAN'T. It hurts more than you'll EVER FUCKING UNDERSTAND. It really hurts still. Right now. It's not helping anything.